been getting a bit of nonsense from work stuff recently and a massive change of tide in many things... now in the uncertainty zone about some stuff and am a sandwich meat ..... humans are juz so ma fan....

so i went thru a think cycle of wondering should i study something academic for knowledge sake. but come to think about it, not really worth it as unless i wanna torture myself with work related domain. That would justify the torture as it leverages ur knowledge but not exactly in that frame of mind as yet. for non work related, it seems throw money to drain for no apparant reason and i dun print money.

so at this point as of now, i will pick up some silly short lessons for the sake of curiosity and possible interest. its not to change career or to dig too deep into it unless i so greatly inspired but doubtful. more like touch and go type. to know but not really know. i have a few in mind and kind of really miss d-ing.

conincidentally a couple of frens ask me to join some stuff but not enticing enuff for me to sign on the dotted line.
W asked about oil painting... W tried charcoal drawing and wanna try other forms. i will totally do misrably in this. if its unstructured and abstract art, i might do it. like doodling nonsense and scribbling things nobody can udnerstand. but to draw oil painting and noe how the sun bounce off the object and how the shadow falls and the acheive the color tone of the apple and pear on the table? cmi ba. it will be in synched with the painting and reality only if i pour the paint on the apple to look like the drawing....

P asked about pole dancing... i was laughing.....most prob my fats will kiap the pole and i get stuck....or i hit my head agst it..... K thinks it's a joke and totally not my style to do it. Whatever my style suppose to be? but ya, it's not my cup of teh.

myb i got less fats now?? i weigh lesser than a feather now. was on those auto escalators and it din detect my weight and move up ... and no, it wasn't spoilt....